October 1, 2011 I'm going to get married to my wonderful partner of 6 years! I'm pretty excited but lately I've been pretty freaked the heck out! It dawned on me that someone is about to commit their LIFE to me! I am about to commit the rest of MY life to someone. Those are not things you just do cuz at the moment you guys think you are cute couple or because your relationship is 'good enough' to make it for some amount of years. People take these commitments for granted and make the people that still believe in the institute of marriage look bad. You have to KNOW that this is going to be forever and that you are going to do everything in your power to keep your love strong. It might be rough road and a hard decision to make...cuz nobody's perfect. I have a disease that isn't going to go away. He is still ready to commit his life to me. Even though we both know that this could get real bad. I don't think in a million years that he would leave...I'm more afraid of being a burden more than anything. No one signs up for this. I can't imagine my future without my future husband. He does so much for me...I feel privileged. I'm just freaked about the real solidity of marriage, but I know that I have met the right person for me and the rest of my life. But that doesn't mean that I won't (pretend) break up with him every week until we get married! Lol!
